Five minutes

 

 

I wake up,  I feel tired.  Desperately tired.  I would give anything for five more minutes… Times run out.  There are no more “five minutes” left.  Instead of denying the rising sun I embrace it.  Instead of hiding from my children under a cover of blankets and pillows I look them in the eyes.  I take in their little faces.

 I let love wash over me.  It’s enough.  I can take on the day, and I take off running.

Nurse Remi, gather clothes, throw a load in the wash, brush teeth, get clothes on the boys, watch Isaac go potty, Cheer for him.  Nurse Rowan, wash my face, put clothes on Isaac again ( by now he’s taken them off) . Feed the kids,  Load them into the car, rush to get the kids dropped off at the gym.  Slide into class, try to go unnoticed, I’m late.

Namaste.

Breathe.

Let gratitude wash over me.  I’m ready.  The race home begins.

Do everything I can before the first baby cries.  Unload dishes, load dishes, make lunch for boys, eat a bite, baby cries.  She needs me.  Sister cries.  She needs me too.  Isaac cries. He needs me because they need me.  I nurse Remi, while I rock Rowan with my foot and cuddle Isaac to my side.  He’s reluctantly exchanged laps for side hugs and hips for hand holds.

Panning the room my heart swells.  I feel grateful that I’m forced, every 3 hours, to sit, relax and just feed my babies, one at a time.  They are my motivation, they fill so much of my cup.  I can keep going.

More diaper changes, games played, floors cleaned, tears dried, meals made, the end of the day is near.  I can’t wait.  For just a few hours between the boys falling asleep and the girls waking up I get to be just me.  Dane and I get to be us.

I let freedom wash over me.

We watch.  We talk.  We love.  We talk some more.  I’m rejuvenated.  He is what I look forward to. We read.  We pray.  I feel peace.  I’m strengthened.  Before I drift off to sleep I think of them.  I smile.  Many hours later I awake with the girls.  Just the three of us.

 I let their littleness wash over me.  I soak in the quiet of the night and our time alone.

Tomorrow the sun will rise… much too soon and I will spend the first 15 minutes of the day fighting my body, fighting the noise, fighting the light.  But my five minutes will soon be up and when they are I’ll stop fighting and soak in the beginning.  The beginning of another day.  Another day  I don’t deserve, but am blessed to have.

Here we go.

JIIILLL

Georgia O’Keeffe day

To celebrate the arrival of Spring, we highlighted one of our favorite artists, Georgia O’Keeffe.  She’s known for her larger than life flowers so it seemed fitting that we ring in Spring by painting like Georgia.  She also painted skulls and animal bones that she found in the New Mexico desert.  Pretty cool lady!  We went over our zoo phonics during lunch and ended the day in story time.  Painting was the perfect way to celebrate Spring!

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Story time at the end of preschool

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Lunch time. Zekey wanted to eat below.

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The boys and their lunch

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Preschool lunch style.

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Painting suns.

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Boston’s O’Keeffe

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Charlie’s O’Keeffe

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Isaac’s O’Keeffe

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Boston art.

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We played a guessing game to see what color, two colors blended, would make.

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Boston’s O’Keeffe

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Isaac’s O’Keeffe

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Charlie’s O’Keeffe

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Such a happy activity

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I bought a 3 pack of canvas from Walmart for $4 and drew Georgia’s “Leaves of a Plant” on the canvas, in a sharpie marker.

St. Patrick’s day 2015

Charlie’s Mom had the idea of a leprechaun hunt today.  So I wrote some clues and she printed them up in tiny tiny print.  So tiny, we had to read them with a magnifying glass.  ;)  This made for a wild day of preschool.  We had a Leprechaun visit early this morning.  We tried to catch him but he was too quick.  He left us a note saying he’d return later that day.  When he did return we called over our preschool buddies to help us find him!

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“Top o the morning Lads what a nice little trap but I can’t be caught just as easy as that A little treat for your efforts now I really must run but keep your eyes open I’ll be back for more fun”

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The trap made with the help of Dad

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Lucky left us these in our trap

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“I’m Lucky the Leprechaun a very fast little man. Let’s play a game called catch me if you can. I’ll leave you some clues I’m not far ahead You’ll find your first clue on top of a bed” The 1st clue said, “I rested a minute after writing this clue but before I could run I had to go poo”.

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Like all Leprechauns I like things that are green. You just might find me by the washing machine (lucky for us we actually own a green dryer)

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I feel a bit hungry, I’ll look for a treat Bet you can’t catch me, I’m quick on my feet!

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I’m nice and full now but I’ve sure made a mess I’ll take a quick bath to clean up and rest

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“You guys are quick you know just where to look. Try to catch me before I finish my book.” Inside the book they found this clue, “Well I’m getting bored, this is taking all day Come find me outside in the house where you play

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Leprechaun treasure in the play house

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The loot

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Leprechaun slimey tracks

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Leprechaun tracks

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Tracks down the monkey bars

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and over the fence where he made his escape

Before we started the hunt we did a little chant.  “Hey, ho, a leprechaun hunting we go!”   I told the kids,

I’m 30 years old and for 30 years i’ve been hunting leprechauns but  have never found one!

Imaginations stirred and our adventure began.

February 19th: Shoe tying

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The boys decided to dress Kristoff as silly as possible today.

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I’ve been combining Zoo phonics with writing a bit more lately so that the boys are connecting writing and reading. The boys looked at a zoo phonics letter then said it’s phrase and wrote the letter in the salt tray. The salt trays are always a hit.

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I decided to introduce the boys into shoe tying. It’s more of a kindergarten skill but I thought it would be good to start familiarizing them with some of the things they’ll be learning in Kinder. The boys are “building their teepee” right now

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Paperplate shoe tied! I found a cute shoe tying poem on pinterest, it goes like this, “Build a teepee, come inside. Pull it tight so we can hide. Over the mountain, around you go here’s my arrow here’s my bow”.

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Story and popcorn time. We read for a half hour. It’s the boys favorite time. We also talked about our favorite books we’ve read in preschool. Charlie asked if we could get them again…so I’ll have to find them at the library.

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Clean up

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Clean up

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Hiding from Charlie’s mom for pick up.

We’ve had a couple sick days this month, so it was good to be back to preschool.  :)

January 29th: Acting out Poems

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Today we combined zoo phonics and writing time

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For math we had a race to fill up our tupperwares. Roll the dice and add that many legos to your tupperware. Once the first person filled their tupperware we stopped and counted who had the most.

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After the cup race we spent some time building tall tall towers

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The boys kept saying, “We’re using team work!”

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When they couldn’t make their tower any taller, they decided to lay it flat and see how long they could make it.

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Isaac coloring and reading Bob Books to himself. :)

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Doing the “Dosey Do” (spelling?) for our reading game

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When I nannied I made up a game with my girls where I would read a book and as I read they had to act out the story. My Mom bought me this book of poems so I read nursery poems to the boys and they acted them out. They acted out dogs, musicians and they even learned a fun dance for, Farmer and the Dell.

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Charlie brought over bubbles so the boys went outside to play while I nursed the babies.

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Dressing Kristoff

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I bought a fun letter puzzle for the boys. Each piece is a letter in a small word and the boys would put the puzzles together and sound out the word.

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I bought road tape and we built roads to race our cars on. We laid down states from the map puzzle for the boys to drive to. We tried to make them somewhat geographically correct. If you wanted to head to California through Washington, you would drive past Oregon first. :)

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Popcorn and reading time

January 5th 2015

The girls and I made it to 36 weeks, a feat we never expected.  Dane and I took our final drive to Spokane and met with our Dr. for the last time.  Everything looked great and the girls were healthy so we had the green light to get these babies here.  It felt so good leaving the office that day with no follow-up appointments.  From that moment on I was off bed rest and all restrictions.  I felt (and looked) like I was about 42 weeks pregnant so I was more than ready go into labor.

On Saturday night my friends picked me up, handed me a Tupperware full of pineapple and walked the mall with me.  I bought the girls a couple premie outfits and walked as far as my legs would let me. On Sunday we awoke to the first snow fall of the year, which in the world of Lorelei Gilmore is a sign of good things to come.  I went to church for the first time in weeks and that night, me, Dane and my Mom sat on the couch to watch our favorite show of the moment, Prison break.  I started feeling contractions around 10 pm but I didn’t want to jinx things, so I kept quiet.  After an hour and a half of consistent contractions we started loading up the car and texting friends and family that would be helping with kids etc…

We were really excited and Dane, me and my Mom all headed to the hospital. I was 4 cm dilated when we arrived.  We were admitted to our room, met the on call Dr. and got our last ultra sound.  It was at this moment we learned we’d be having a C-section.  Remi (our smaller baby) was the furthest down, which meant she would come out first, putting Rowan at a serious risk of getting stuck/choking since she was 1.5 lbs bigger.  A C-section was our only option and I was pretty devastated.  From that moment on things progressed at rapid speed.  I continued to dilate and my contractions were getting stronger.  Bekie arrived to be a support and Dane and I got prepped for surgery.  We were both terrified, but remained calm.  The nurse made me say goodbye to my Mom, Bekie and Dane and this was the first moment I realized Dane couldn’t be with me while I got my spinal.  :(  I was scared, but the anesthesiologist told me all I need is about 10 minutes of holding it together, then the babies would be here and he could give me any kind of anxiety medication I wanted.  :)  So the nurse and I walked to the OR and she chatted with me about my kids while I got my spinal. I was terrified of the Spinal, but it didn’t even hurt and it was in before I knew it.   Once I was prepped they let Dane come in.

We couldn’t believe our babies would be here within minutes!  Dane and I chatted to distract ourselves from the surgery. The Dr. asked if I wanted my tubes tied and after an emphatic “NO!” I continued to check throughout the surgery that she still had no plans of tying my tubes.  :)  The surgery wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be and within just a few minutes we heard our first baby girl cry.  Dane and I started crying and laughing and couldn’t believe we had one healthy baby girl.  Dane got to hold her first and I kissed her little head.  A minute later our 2nd baby girl arrived and within seconds we heard her cry too.  Dane held her and I kissed her head and we laughed and cried some more.  After so many months of protecting, growing and praying for these girls I was overwhelmed with joy at their arrival.  We laughed as we heard the echos of not 1 but 2 babies cry in the OR room.  Dane said,

Ok.  It’s finally hit me.  We have twins.

While I was being stitched up, the girls were taken to the nursery.  Dane was feeling faint so the Dr had him lay on the floor.  And when I was all stitched up they wheeled both Dane and I back to our room.  haha.  We got in the room and waited patiently for our girls to get back.  The anesthesiologist was going to give me some medicine to relax me and help me sleep, but I didn’t want that.  I just wanted to see my babies.  Bekie and my Mom got to be with the babies in the nursery and hold and cuddle them for about 45 minutes.  Bekie sent us pictures of my babies from down the hall and I kept begging my nurse to bring them to me.  They finally brought the babies to me and I cuddled them right up.  I began tandem nursing right away and the girls both latched on really well.  I was nauseous from the anesthesia so I threw up every few minutes, then went back to nursing and celebrating with Bekie, Dane and my Mom.  We were all on a baby high and so excited about these two beautiful girls.  Many of my friends and Dane’s family were texting away, dying to hear every detail about the girls despite the fact that it was 3 in the morning.

Dane went home to the boys that night and my Mom stayed with me.  The next few days were a hazy blur of no sleep, drugs round the clock and visitors.  The boys were thrilled to meet and hold their baby sisters for the first time.  After 3 exhausting days in the hospital we were sent home and life as we now know it began.

I had a rough transition dealing with the C-section recovery and wild hormones, but our baby girls were the most peaceful happy babies.   The girls are a little over a month old now and life is good.  I wake up every day feeling so blessed, barely remembering life before they were here.

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snuggling mom for the first time

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1 week before the twins arrived

preschool Jan 27th 2015: Letter stomp

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The boys drew their self portraits and wrote their names at the bottom. They both used light crayons. :)

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Getting boots on for the stomp game

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The boys were so excited for this game. Each boy took turns doing a zoo phonics flash card, then finding the styrofoam cup that had that cards capital and lower case letter on it, then they stomped it!

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The boys cheering Zekey on

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Boston put on his special moccosins for this game

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Charlie put on his boots for this game until he decided to use his “powerful feet”

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The boys picked up each cup and brought it to the table (without being asked) after every stomp

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Posing with Kristoff on this dreary cold day

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Doing math equations with our math machine.

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Sending the colored sticks down the tube

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Reading the equation and collecting sticks to add to the machine

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Isaac took turns sending random numbers of sticks down the tubes.

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Candy land while I nurse babies

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Charlie’s turn

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I played Super why with the boys. Very fun reading game

We finished the day out with games and puzzles.  It was an extra fun day.  :)  Oh!  and Boston felt stormy, Charlie felt Dusty (as in the airplane), Isaac felt jibberish and I felt tired.  Not sure we’re learning much about actual feelings but it’s one of our favorite parts of the day.  :)