Thursday was a bummer day. I didn’t waste time on facebook or blogs, or whatever else I would usually do, but I still was feeling bummed. The day started out good enough. I hit the gym like I’ve been doing every day and I got in devotional with Boss. The boys and I read books together, I had a friend over for a while, but by the time dinner was over and Dane and I were hanging out with the boys I turned to him and said, “is it ok if I just vent? I just need to say how I’m feeling” and so I just rambled on about how I felt like a loser Mom today. There was absolutely no reason for me to feel that way, especially given that I did a lot of great things for my family that day, but I still felt down. I felt like I wasn’t very good at keeping up with the tasks in my house, not sure If I was doing enough for Boston ( and just in general i felt guilty/losery.
As I was talking( ok, venting) I realized that I hadn’t done ANYTHING to feed myself spiritually that day. Not. One. Thing. No scriptures. No good music. Not even any Mormon messages. Nothing. It hit me what a difference it must make for me when I give myself that “spiritual nourishment” that I need.
So that’s another benefit of this challenge. I’m realizing that even if I don’t waste my “free time” I still need to make time to do at least something for myself spiritually, every day.
Oh and I need to go to bed earlier, so I don’t feel so dang exhausted all the time…but I already knew that.